Ever wake up and just have one of those days?

I woke up around 9:30am in a great mood. After getting out of the shower I kicked my cousin a few times to wake him up and get him out of the house. I spent about 30 minutes calling him a loser in a failed attempt to get him motivated to leave the house. He is visiting from Seattle Washington (first time in the city) and hasn’t really seen much of the city. I finally left for work around 10:30. 

Leaving my house I was in a great mood. The sun was shining, the temperature was moderate, and, best of all, the hallway didn’t stink. Something changed when I walked down into the Brooklyn subway stop. While waiting for the A-train to arrive my mood suddenly shifted from happy-go-luck to incredibly solemn and glum. I jumped on the train, found a seat and turned on my iPod. 

Normally I listen to Mandarin lessons in the morning (I’m learning Chinese) but, because of my mood, today I decided to throw on a KEXP podcast. The latest Podcast I had was #6; which is filled with a lot of upbeat rock from Cloud Cult, Okkervil River, Spoon, The Hold Steady and others. The weirdest thing happened though. When Cloud Cult (Transistor Radio) came on my mood shifted even deeper into an dark-mood abyss. I started to feel tears welling up inside and I found myself fighting back the urge to cry. 

Odd…..

I have no reason to cry and I am not the type of person that bursts into tears for no reason. Yet, I found myself listening to Okkervil River, staring out of the subway passing by 23rd street with a single tear dripping down my face. No explanation. 

Freakin’ weird. 

So I started thinking about what was going on and I came up with only one reason. I feel as though all of the things that I came to New York for are slipping away from me. I accepted the job at MNN because I wanted to get more involved with Video and Music yet I haven’t picked up my video camera since August and I haven’t recorded audio or video since my cross-country drive. I just don’t have the time, I have been dedicated myself to a programming project for MNN and I really don’t like working on large programming projects. 

Aaaaahhh, life. It throws weird curve balls at ya from time to time.